DEAR 16-YEAR-OLD LILY
Have you ever wondered what you would say to your 16-year-old self? I was thinking about it the other day and decided to write one to my 16-year-old self. I wish I had a letter like this when I was 16, perhaps I would have avoided some mistakes but what is life without mistakes? Afterall we need to make mistakes so we can learn from them, right?
Dear 16-year-old Lily,
16 is such an awesome age. You finally get to get your license, but if you let your permit expire you'll end up getting it a little later than you expect, so take the behind the wheel test before it expires.
Ok, so I know you are smart, and you have a pretty good head on your shoulders, but I have to tell you something, you don't know EVERYTHING. You think you know a lot and admit you don't know everything but you sometimes act like you know everything. The reality is you don't know anything in the grand scheme of things, so relax.
You know how Vivian and Lizzy keep inviting you to church? A church that is not a Catholic church? Well, you should go with them and see how you like it but go with an open mind, not with prejudice, you might end up liking it. God may just be calling, don't ignore him or turn your back on him you're not as close to him as you think, and you don't know him as well as you think. Truly seek him, and he will reveal himself to you. Know that Jesus loves you!
You're going to be walking to art class one day, and you will trip ripping your pants right where your knee is. You'll look around and think no one saw you but one person who walks in the class after you did. He'll ask if you are ok, you'll want to pretend like nothing happened but it did so just laugh and say yes. Don't be embarrassed laugh it off; it will be pretty funny.
Another funny thing is that you, Lana and Ariel are going to be walking to lunch and Lana will trip and pretend she blacked out. Don't laugh at her and tell her just to say the truth. Just play along, she will be embarrassed enough, don't make it worse.
Now, you will experience a loss of a new but good friend. You'll end up not going to prom. You'll mourn their death and be okay but your childhood friend, her best friend, needs you. Be there for her even when she pushes you away.
Continue to work hard at school and continue to be active with extracurricular activities. Get Ariel involved because she wants to be, and she just doesn't know it yet. Oh, and when things don't work out quite as you planned, it is okay, be flexible and keep moving ahead. Don't lose motivation and most important don't give up.
Finally, drink your medicine! I know you don't feel anything with the kidneys, you feel fine, but you do have kidney disease, and yes, you are right God will take care of you, but you have to trust him. I know you are not ready for a transplant, tell your doctors. Let your doctors know why. Have them educate you and tell you everything you can possibly know so that if you do need to get the transplant now or in the future, you'll be prepared enough to deal with it, and it won't come down on you like a ton of bricks all at once. Be BRAVE don't be SCARED.
Everything will be ok, have FAITH IN THE LORD AND ALLOW HIM TO LEAD YOU.
Love, 31-year-old you
p.s: Enjoy and take life one day at a time.
What would you tell your 16-year-old self, or which stage in life or
age in life would you write to yourself about?